Yeah, I want to feel that bone in my mouth. Put that bone inside me, chicken. Let me suck the meat from your bone.

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She should swallow a hydrogen cyanide capsule that only dissolves if triggered by the detection of radioactive decay.

Who knows what will happen to the cat?

Well, it gets confusing when your mom is a famous stock photo hand model.

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Just mild nearsightnedness, not the kind of impairment you would expect to lead to non-24. I think every case is a bit different, and I’m probably not the best person to ask what with my lack of professional diagnosis.

But for me, I think it could have some relation to ADHD. In particular, I tend to “sleep procrastinate”. I can lie in bed for hours and hours without feeling tired, because my brain is telling me, “You’re not done with your day yet.”

Typically this means doing a collection of self-serving things (video games, movies, etc) for the purposes of de-stressing, and hopefully also the life maintenance things I should be doing, including work. And after all of this, I tend to feel like my day is just starting - now that I’ve gotten all of those things out of the way, I can finally think about the passion projects that might allow me to escape the rat race altogether, and maybe even change the system for the better. For me, it comes down to this doubt as to whether there will be a place for me in the world, come 5 or 10 years from now. The more I feel like I’m “escaping” the system, the less stress I feel in my day, the more complete I feel when it’s time to sleep. But it’s a work in progress.

So, if I had to guess based on personal experience, I would think there could be some near-constant stressor that has simply always been part of your mom’s life, and if that thing were to be addressed (or maybe therapy to figure out what the root even is), the symptoms could lesson. But of course, this is highly specific to my own personal experience (which I am still struggling to understand), and your mom’s ailment could be from an entirely different cause. What I have heard from internet research is that it’s a lot rarer in sighted people but still definitely does happen. And may have another ailment as the root cause (such as how ADHD can disrupt circadian rhythm in general).

And thanks for the tip on seeking the more rural urgent care facilities. Without being too specific about region, in my area, that would definitely be applicable. Right now, I have no aches or pains, and since prostate stones can be caused by temporary bacteria infections, it’s entirely possible it just went away. An ultrasound would definitely be the right move for me though. I’m just hoping that I continue to feel fine until I have good insurance again, just because that seems easiest. I’m lucky to have decent social services where I am should anything truly urgent occur. But it’s definitely a good reminder to make health a priority over work when I am employed.

And while a smidge embarrassing, I appreciate being on a small-scale social media network like this where I can randomly discuss my health issues on a meme thread. Have to remind myself that I haven’t really discussed my health with anyone as an adult, and it’s probably something that men in general could stand to get more used to doing.

Short answer is I’ve been to urgent care twice, once in my early twenties for pneumonia and once a couple years ago for a fungal ear infection that a nurse practitioner was able to flush out. Other than that, just dental visits and eye exams.

It’s not necessarily an aversion (though I’m wary of pharmaceutical kickbacks leading to over-medication). It’s mostly the way all these regular responsibilities stack up (oil changes, DMV, dishes, laundry, etc), doctor’s appointments are the thing where I don’t see immediate consequences for not doing. But I recognize that I’ve finally encountered a medical issue that requires deeper examination and treatment than I can do on my own. And I’m just getting to that age where I need to do more preventative checks. Mostly right now I’m trying to see if there’s anything I can do to keep any potential issue from getting worse between now and the time I have insurance again.

But I agree. It will be nice to have a GP even if just so I don’t have to feel so alone in my healthcare.

Ye, good shout

This is good info, too, thank you. Shamefully, my life has been plagued by non-24 sleep disorder that has made it hard to hold a job for more than 18 months at a time. I eventually become exhausted and sleep deprived and have to quit, and while I should see doctors in that time, I never really have, I just work and try to save money for the between times.

I don’t want to paint my situation as doom and gloom though, please no pity for the above. I’m finally in possession of technology and time to complete the project I’ve always wanted to complete, which is now close to completion and should serve as the kind of portfolio that will get me exactly the job I want, if not making passive income on its own. One way or another, I’ll be stable and seeing a doctor soon. But having lived the life I’ve lived, it now makes me passionate and focused on creating a new system that circumvent the parts of capitalism that have made me feel so tread-upon.

As a side note, there actually is decent healthcare in my state that I could probably take advantage of in the short term at not terrible cost if I just applied. But I get stuck in this cycle where I feel I won’t be stable until I have a job that’s good for me, I don’t feel confident getting that job until my project is complete enough to show off, and any time I devote to advancing my own health takes away from time spent on completing the project. I can’t pretend it’s healthy or sustainable. I just feel like I’m so close now so I’m trying to get there before anything serious breaks. And the closer I get to finishing this thing, the easier I sleep at night. Which makes me think maybe the root of these sleep problems might be stress from living in such a system where my physical health is conditional. I have no answers and there’s a lot I’m not doing right, but please don’t worry about me. So many others in greater need of our worries. I’ll report back on the prostate though. For science.

Same, that’s what I had heard that’s leading me to try some gentle exploration. If people safely do it for pleasure anyway, maybe if the pieces are still somewhat separate and just need to be shook around a bit (I’m thinking like when you go a bit too long without using a sugar cereal so it becomes one big brick and maybe you just need to flick it a bit to break it back up), I can go back to clearing my own system. I have a feeling diet and exercise are big players here too. But like everyone keeps saying, I’ll be careful and get in touch with a doctor before too awfully long.

Not sure if this is the right place go ask, or whether this counts as going dirty on main. I’ve never really been about the butt stuff, but nothing against it either, it’s just not my thing. But a few years ago, I started getting prostate stones, little crystals of mostly protein I’m told that come out with ejaculate. I had a couple years of that and then it stopped. I worry that it’s still building up and calcifying back there and it’s going to lead to me having a calcified prostate with all those stereotypical middle aged man problems. So, I wonder if hitting the prostate from the backside can break things up enough to start cleaning things out again. I’ve tried using a finger a couple times, but found it not super comfortable and it didn’t really seem to make a difference. Is this inflatable sort of thing going to be my best bet in applying enough pressure to push things out without inflaming anything? Or is there a better tool for the job, so to speak? I appreciate your time and expertise in this, um, sensitive matter.

That was a big factor, sure. But no, it was the “deconfliction” queue they made for Texas DPS to track repeated facial recognition hits without any evidence tying the suspect to the crime scene - in theory identifying repeat offenders, but in practice, targeting black and brown people whose faces are likely to be harder for facial recognition to differentiate and therefore they may end up with random no-knock warrants on their names having never actually committed any crime. That toilet paper though… it’s in the running.

I used to work for the company that creates the facial recognition system inside MSG. Three guesses why I don’t work there anymore.

Yeah, I keep my Windows PC purely for League of Legends due to their anti cheat (read rootkit) and it’s a pre-2017 chip, so it’s not Win 11 eligible (which I’ve always counted my blessings for). And also the Spotify web page doesn’t work well for me on Linux. Other than that, I do pretty much everything on my newer Linux machine.

Yes, I think yaml’s biggest strength is also its built-in flaw: its flexibility. Yaml as a data structure is built to be so open-ended that it can be no surprise when every component written in Go and using Yaml as a data structure builds their spec in a slightly different way, even when performing the exact same functions.

That’s why I yearned for something like CUE and was elated to discover it. CUE provides the control that yaml by its very nature cannot enforce. I can create CUE that defines the yaml structure in general so anything my system builds is valid yaml. And I can create a constraint which builds off of that and defines the structure of a valid kubernetes manifest. Then, when I go to define the CUE that builds up a KubeVela app I can base its constraints on those k8s constraints and add only KubeVela-specific rules.

Then I have modules of other components that could be defined as KubeVela Applications on the cluster but I define their constraints agnostically and merge the constraint sets together to create the final yaml in proper KubeVela Application format. And if the component needs to talk to another component, I standardize the syntax of the shared function and then link that function up to whatever tool is currently in use for that purpose.

I think it’s a good point that overgeneralization can and does occur and my “one size fits all” approach might not actually fit all. But I’m hoping that if I finish this tool and shop it to a place that thinks it’s overkill, I can just have them tell me which parts they want generalized and define a function to export a subset of my CUE for their needs. And in that scenario, I would flip and become a big proponent of “Just General Enough”. Because then, they can have the streamlined fit-for-purpose system they desire and I can have the satisfaction of not having to do the same work over and over again.

But the my fear about going down that road is that it might be less of an export of a subset of code and more of building yet another system that can MAD-style generate my whole CUE system for whatever level of generalization I want. As you say, it just becomes another abstraction layer. Can’t say I’m quite ready to go that far 😅

Thanks for the info. When I searched MASD, it told me instead about MAD, so it’s good to know how they’re differentiated.

This whole idea comes from working in a shop where most of their DevSecOps practices were fantastic, but we were maintaining fleets of Helm charts (picture the same Helm override sent to lots of different places with slightly different configuration). The unique values for each deployment were buried “somewhere” in all of these very lengthy values.yaml override files. Basically had to did into thousands of lines of code whenever you didn’t know off-hand how a deployment was configured.

I think when you’re in the thick of a job, people tend to just do what gets the job done, even if it means you’re going to have to do it again in two weeks. We want to automate, but it becomes a battle between custom-fitting and generalization. With the tradeoff being that generalization takes a lot of time and effort to do correctly.

So, I think plenty of places are “kind of” at this level where they might use CUE to generalize but tend to modify the CUE for each use case individually. But many DevOps teams I suspect aren’t even using CUE, they’re still modifying raw yaml. I think of yaml like plumbing. It’s very important, but best not exposed for manual modification unless necessary. Mostly I just see CUE used to construct and deliver Helm/kubernetes on the cluster, in tools like KubeVela and Radius. This is great for overriding complex Helm manifests with a simple Application .yaml, but the missing niche I’m trying to fill is a tool that provides the connections between different tools and constrains the overall structure of a DevSecOps stack.

I’d imagine any company with a team who has solved this problem is keeping it proprietary since it represents a pretty big advantage at the moment. But I think it’s just as likely that a project like this requires such a heavy lift before seeing any gain that most businesses simply aren’t focusing on it.

I’ve never heard of this before, but you’re right that it sounds very much like what I’m doing. Thank you! Definitely going to research this topic thoroughly now to make sure I’m not reinventing the wheel.

Based on the sections in that link, I wondered if the MASD project was more geared toward the software dev side or devops. I asked Google and got this AI response:

“MAD” (Modern Application Development) services, often used in the context of software development, encompass a broader approach that includes DevOps principles and tools, focusing on rapid innovation and cloud-native architectures, rather than solely on systems development.

So (if accurate), it sounds like all the modernized automation of CI/CD, IaC, and GitOps that I know and love are already engaging in MAD philosophy. And what I’m doing is really just providing the last puzzle piece to fully automate stack architecting. I’m guessing the reason it doesn’t already exist is because a lot of the open source tools I’m relying on to do the heavy lifting inside kubernetes are themselves relatively new. So, hopefully this all means I’m not wasting my time lol

Yeah, I’ve been using it heavily. While someone without technical knowledge will surely allow AI to build a highly insecure app, people with more technological knowledge are going to propel things to a level where the less tech savvy will have fewer and fewer pitfalls to fall into.

For the past two months, I’ve been leveraging AI to build a CUE system that takes a user desire (e.g. “i want to deploy a system with an app that uses a database and a message queue” expressed as a short json) and converts a simple configuration file that unpacks into all the kubernetes manifests required to deploy the system they want to deploy.

I’m trying to be fully shift-left about it. So, even if the user’s configuration is as simple as my example, it should still use CUE templating to construct the files needed for a full DevSecOps stack - Ingress Controller, KEDA, some kind of logging such as ELK stack, vulnerability scanners, policy agents, etc. The idea is the every stack should at all times be created in a secure state. And extra CUE transformations ensure that you can split the deployment destinations in any type of way, local/onprem, any cloud provider, or any combination thereof.

The idea is that if I need to swap out a component, I just change one override in the config and the incoming component already knows how to connect to everything and do what the previous component was doing because I’ve already abstracted the component’s expected manifest fields using CUE. So, I’d be able to do something like changing my deployment from one cloud to another with a click of a button. Or build up a whole new fully secure stack for a custom purpose within a few minutes.

The idea is I could use this system to launch my own social media app, since I’ve been planning the ideal UX for many years. But whether or not that pans out, I can take my CUE system and put a web interface over it to turn it into a mostly automated PaaS. I figure I could undercut most PaaS companies and charge just a few percentage points above cost (using OpenCost to track the expenses). If we get to the point where we have a ton of novices creating apps with AI, I might be in a lucrative position if I have a PaaS that can quickly scale and provide automated secure back ends.

Of course, I intend on open sourcing the CUE once it’s developed enough to get things off the ground. I’d really love to make money from my creative ideas on a socialized media app that I create, am less excited about gatekeeping this kind of advancement.

Interested to know if anyone has done this type of project in the past. Definitely wouldn’t have been able to move at nearly this speed without AI.

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My perspective is only mine, but I’ve had mixed results on this.

I’m in my mid-thirties and I have not seen a doctor as an adult. I have been to urgent care twice, once in my early twenties for pneumonia and once a couple years ago for a fungal ear infection.

I have a few minor ailments, some curable and some not, which I would love to see a doctor for. But I’m always afraid to open that door. Due to my ADHD, I tend to get in a cycle where I’ll find a decent job, burn out due to poor sleep hygiene and the pressure of wanting to do well, and then spend months working on personal projects and getting good sleep until I have to find work again.

I have this fear that I’ll find a doctor and get prescribed for something that I’m told I need and then become reliant on that medicine and then leave my job and not have an affordable way to get it. I’m mildly overweight, but at my peak fatness I was worried I was pre-diabetic. And I avoided seeing a doctor still because I figured I’d like to focus on diet and exercise to address it without medicine, because I don’t want to get prescribed anything. I get concerned hearing news stories about doctors getting pharmaceutical kickbacks.

I can’t stay young forever. My problems will worsen without adequate care. My goal is to make enough money from creating software independently that I don’t have to worry about whether I have a job or not when I schedule a doctor’s visit. To know I’ll be able to afford any medication either way. I feel like I’m getting close to realistically achieving this but it’s not necessarily a realistic goal for the average person with ADHD to have.

In the absence of healthcare, I have smoked and consumed a lot of cannabis. This self-medication has been the source of some of my ailments. There is a real possibility that if I continue to smoke this way into old age, I will develop some form of emphysema. I do not want to be dependent on this drug forever.

That said, the effect it has on my ADHD is mostly positive. I’ve developed a tolerance such that I’m not as affected by most of the usual negative side effects - impaired memory, lowered cognitive function, etc, though there is still some effect. It leads me to disassociate more for sure. But that can also be good practice for maintaining focus when I’m sober. I’m a lot better at that than I used to be. Maybe mainly due to maturity and experience. But if properly channeled, the THC-fueled ADHD tangents can lead to productive results. In my experience.

People forget that cannabis has a narcotic component. When I consume edibles, it makes me sleepy. But something about the metabolic pathway of smoking gives cannabis smoke or vapor a stimulant effect on me. And it motivates me to enjoy the thing I’m doing, whatever that is. It’s very easy to get lost in the enjoyment of watching movies or playing video games or making comments on Lemmy (oops). But when I’m doing work while high, I get a certain enjoyment in the minutiae of the task and trying to adequately solve whatever piece of the puzzle is keeping my work from advancing. Where I might not have had the motivation to work at all before, cannabis can make it a fun activity. Again, it’s how it works for me.

But it’s expensive, even with how cheap it’s become. When you look at the long term, who knows if I would have saved money with pharmaceuticals instead? And it hurts my lungs, makes me cough loudly. I’m also dependent on it. I’ve needed to stop at times for jobs, or because I was trying to quit. And I notice after a week or two, I’m more irritable, more lethargic, with increased depression and suicidal ideation. It is addictive.

But so are the stimulants people with ADHD take. I’ve dated people on these meds and seen the difference in energy of on versus off. I wonder if in some ways I’m better of from having not used my access to medical care and instead I developed coping mechanisms that allow me to exist in the world. Or just grew out of some of my issues to some degree. But even if THC has helped me with the introspective development I needed to reach this point, I wonder if I would now be better off without it. And maybe give the pharmaceuticals a shot, tentatively. I’m unsure.

I don’t think the guy promoting cannabis in this thread is doing so with very much tact, and maybe the downvotes are useful to deliver that point. But given my history I hesitate to entirely dismiss the idea that cannabis can stand in for a stimulant in certain scenarios. We should be realistic about the risks and tradeoffs, but I felt the need to provide my somewhat biased viewpoint. Not trying to persuade anyone, just want my experience to live here as another point of data. In case anyone else has experienced something similar.