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Nice cherry picking chef. Might try career in confectioning 💩

I think that we do not need to focus on finishing our stuff but can just grow on all the projects we attempt. Sure finishing I guess is important in the society but you will do this with the strategic use of the stimulants on the projects that you think are still worthy after initial hyper fixation runs out. You gain a lot from the very attempts, even the smallest ones. Finishing or not.

You will have clearer judgment of these projects this way too because let’s be honest not all impulsive hyper projects are that genius. Then you will pick the best ones, apply good amount of chemical stimulants of choice and power through.

At least that’s how my flavor works

Also I have noticed that curbing the hyper fixation is very beneficial for certain things. If it still hasn’t burnt out then it will come back with a fresh perspective and some sort of extract of the previous efforts will be ready in your memory to work with without all the bloat and mess of the initial thinking. As if your subconscious worked for you all the time and processed the ideas to something better.

The more I delay the actual work thinking and planning the more likely I am to succeed at it, when I bog myself in some prototype details it’s basically over at least without stimulants.

In fact I think I should hire someone else to do wade through details while I keep an eye on the overall global picture. Some kind of autistic with special interest will fit that role perfectly.

So as you see there is this idea of ADHD-Autistic pairs where one side keeps an eye on the global picture (the forest) and autist focuses on the details and implementation (the trees). I think that perhaps it could prove much better than 2 neurotypicals.

I am actually looking now for a neurodivergent with special interests in: tensor fields, natural language processing, compilers, programming, automata, expressions and grammar. I need them to code a system involving these topics.

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sarcasm tags are for the weak willed, we don’t do such things even in the autism central online. What happens, happens

I have unironically read my comment 10 times already just to savor how perfectly and tastefully it is composed. Truly a masterpiece of some kind.

in my book far left are hexbears hence centrism is something like social democrats a la usa bernie

gotta hate politics and its muddy definitions but I unironically like to call myself centrist. Then I am surprised how controversial it is on the interwebs because apparently everyone has different definitions. They routinely make them up on the fly 🪰

For me centrism is a fine art 🎨 of staying far away from the madness of extremism 🤪. I love centrism. I huff centrism. I breathe centrism.
I fuck with centrism.

It is deeply based in the sense of superiority and moral high ground. As all politics but this is a fundamental part of centrism. Centrism is saying “You all suck” I am better than you and enables feeling of superiority over the biggest swath of Redditors internet activists 🤓 which is a lovely perk. It is a true essential trick of the ultimate hedonist. If politics were about sex, centrist would be someone jerking it off to the mirror.

What is this shit?

Does it have a chemical name of the compound or what is it exactly?

Hmm okay gotcha. I would very much like to get into the adhd meds resell market that should exist somewhere there. Some kind of crypto payment and shipping to parcel lockers. It has to be a thing

Yes I know that existence of this market is the very thing probably responsible for various shortages but what can you do

And I happen to be in EU so like there’s no way someone is gonna check on the border anything so I could find someone from any of the EU countries.

The only question is how as I said kill me I can’t do such things.

I known someone who could go on vacation to some place and already knew how to get every drug known to humankind on the first day there

I wouldn’t know how to find a drug dealer even if my life depended on it lol haha

Thanks for the monitoring advice. Do they usually sell things impure with contaminants? Just fillers?

Don’t take me wrong. I just need to be skeptical of things I will need to take for quite a long time. I want to focus on safety and it just didn’t sound like something that is established or well researched

My ideal approach to safety is: Researched long term effects, many trials, tried substances with known recommendations -> Reputable supplier with documented ingredients to avoid impurities -> Legal stuff like minimizing private data exposure -> Pre treatment health check -> Health monitoring

Weed is making things so much worse for me. Anxiety is my only drive in life to do boring stuff. And when its levels go down, my level of productivity plummets to the point of nothing is getting done anymore.

The frick is that hippy stuff? sounds like some load of bollocks no offense

Cmon I am not gonna blast myself with some experimental early stages drug candidates. Reasonable level of risk. I meant more legal risks. Health risks would preferably be equal to that of an official treatment. No experiments on living bodies nah that’s for them lab rats.

I can handle explanations in court, make sweet eyes and go for a year of public service cleaning work but I don’t think I can handle explanations at emergency room

Also maybe we will be able to prompt our pc with a local open source model “pick all science related screenshots and group by the topic” - sure 1344 results, do you want to see them?, no list all the topics, - astronomy(34), quantum(23), ethnology(10)

Also there is a problem with some clinics diagnosing adhd ad hoc

You just go they talk to you and bam you get diagnosis after one hour of half assed interview and questionnaire. It’s more or less harmless for individual imo but you waste money and time where the problem may be something different

I don’t know how to approach this fake half assed diagnosis topic but it has disturbed my inner peace and itches the back of the brain

I know that in the future AI will scour my screenshot folder and group everything neatly, add tags even.

Hope is a wonderful drug

As someone who is prone to narcissism please stop glorifying add superpowers lol, I knew I am a genius already

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It’s all a bit of a cope, deep down there is this primal call that isn’t easily shrugged off. Well for some at least. I know that it will get stronger for me and stronger with each year.

I am not saying the purpose of humans nowadays is to make children nor that we should be reduced to such concepts but… it’s not easy to escape millions of years of evolution. It is definitely going against everything that screams “multiply” deep down and that will take mental health toll

Sometimes I am writing something, very focused, my family member wants something from me and I snap at them incredibly hard in the retrospection seconds later. Like some kind of volcano eruption and then frustration because my train of thought is totally lost now and the focus gone I don’t know what I even wanted to write.

Because you know I had this overarching idea but it is too ephemeral to remember for long. It’s more like a gist, feeling even. Super fragile and easily lost in the wind of thoughts.

Maybe it isn’t even that important but I hate when it happens. It dissipates and there is no trace of it whatsoever as if it never even existed.